I always wanted to be on TV... but is it what I imagined it to be?
How do you define success? This is the question at the heart of Sara Pascoe’s new touring show, Success Story. You’d think that a comedian at the top of the stand-up game and with several books to her name, would pretty much have all the answers about triumph. But far from it!
‘What I want to explore is how do we define success and when do we define it,’ she says ‘Does it change with age, do we only want things we can’t have? When we attain our goals, do we move the goalposts and become unsatisfied with what we've got and want something else instead?
‘I’m 40 now and it’s a reflective time; it feels like a very adult age. Looking back on my life to when I was 14, I really wanted to be on television. That’s where I work now but is it what I imagined it to be?’
Simultaneously, the public success coincided with a fraught personal chapter. ‘I was having years of infertility and when we were going through IVF, the word "success" was used a lot about the process,’ she says. ‘So, I wanted to contrast that with these other things that are seen as representing successful lives such as finding someone we love and having a family. There are a lot of areas being covered."
All this might sound a bit heavy, there are a number of daft stories to flesh out her central thesis. Such as the time she terrified Pete Burns, the late figurehead of 1980s band Dead Or Alive and later reality TV star. ‘He did a reality show where he was looking for a PA and I was told I would get 50 pounds cash in an envelope if I kept accosting him in the street.
‘So, outside a coffee shop in Soho, I had to pretend to be a superfan and hug and kiss him and say how much I love him and see how all these potential PAs would deal with this crazy, neurotic fangirl.
‘At the end of that day, he said that I scared him which just showed how good my acting was. That show is sometimes repeated on an MTV channel and I’ll get a text or a tweet saying "oh my god, I had no idea you were such a Pete Burns fan".’
Now though, Sara doesn’t have to pretend to be anyone else. She’s soon about to be back among her people again, entertaining fans who may have come to her through earlier stand-up or from TV presenting roles in Comedians Giving Lectures or The Great British Sewing Bee that have lifted her public profile.
‘Comedians Giving Lectures can be like hosting a stand-up show, and I love it because these very high-status experienced comics are often doing brand new material because they’ve written a lecture for the show,’ she says. ‘For me, it feels like a gig rather than a TV programme.
‘In Sewing Bee, I occasionally write jokes for the links, but you’re doing a joke for eight people who are really thinking about sewing; they’re not thinking about your pun on the wrap dress.’
TV prominence aside, Sara is desperate to get back on tour. After the pandemic, Sara Pascoe is not going to be complaining about the rigours of being on the road.
‘Yes, it can be tiring but when you’re in the dressing room before a show and you hear the hubbub of a busy room, you feel very lucky that people will come and see you at all, never mind in their hundreds or thousands.
‘There’s a description in Alan Davies’ book about how walking out on stage as a comedian is the closest you can get to being a toddler taking your first steps towards your excited parents. That’s the feeling comedians are trying to recreate by getting this huge round of applause from people who like you and are pleased you are there. That’s the side of it that’s addictive and compulsive.
And she says she will never take it for granted. ‘No one likes to do a mediocre gig, or worse, a flat gig. Especially when you’ve earned an audience from TV work, the idea that they might come to see you for the first time and leave disappointed really keeps you going.
‘At the end of a show, you don’t want a crowd going, "yeah, that was fine". You want them to say "oh god, do you remember that bit?" And "I must tell Auntie Susan about this bit". You want an audience to be engaged in what you’re saying.
‘When I watch comedy and want to text my dad about something that was said during a show, I know it was brilliant.’
• Success Story kicks off in November. Click here for Sara Pascoe’s tour dates.
Published: 30 May 2022